"I've been afraid of changes"

I've been too scared to write lately. Things are really getting out of control for me. I wanted this change, prayed for it, but now that it's here I'm having a hard time dealing with it. Plus I'm still behind on school work, and we are not completely moved out of our old home!

So back to the being too scared to write. Things have been so complex and unpredictable. I like to sit back and make smug predictions and observations, but I can't really do that now. I have no idea what is going to happen to us. I'm throwing everything away that I was taught to want: A secure job with retirement and health insurance. (Not that there is anything wrong with that. Everyone should be so lucky. I'm going to miss my health insurance most of all!) I truly have no idea what the next week holds and the more I think about this the more I have to keep myself from hyperventilating.

I have a few stories to share about saying good-bye. I will save those for later. Hopefully I won't be all gloom and doom.